Even though I'm a stay at home wife, at the moment, I never seem to be able to stay on task or keep order in my home. You'd think it would be easy since I have no real obligations outside the home. I make lists and give myself assignments to complete tasks but often, at days end, I'm discouraged to find I've accomplished little. Why is that?
I have good intentions and tell myself that if I do A, B, and C then I can reward myself with whatever excites me at the moment. I may start off on the right foot, but quickly lose my focus. I get on the computer to check something really quick, and the next time I look at the clock two hours have passed by. How can that be?
I think sometimes I allow distractions to fog my present state so that I don't have to deal with anxiety or frustration or whatever the emotion of the day may be. It's much easier to just slip into a false reality or daydream. It's very easy for me to be sidetracked.
So... I've decided I'm not a leader! I can't even lead myself. But at the same time... I've decided that's not a bad thing. As a christian I need to be led by the Spirit and guided in the path to take. That doesn't mean I throw my hands in the air and resign myself to failure. I think it means instead that I allow Him to direct me in my daily walk.
Proverbs 3:6 says, "In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." That's what I need. A straight path!
I'm willing to acknowledge that I can't do it on my own. I need the direction and guidance of a loving Savior who is patient enough to gently nudge me in the right direction when I get sidetracked. I need to resign my leadership and submit to a higher authority. That's what I want. That's what I need!
So... today I acknowledge your authority Lord. I submit to you and ask that you lead me and direct my path. Guide me in the direction I must go... in order to be a better wife, a better person, a better servant.
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